Sorry Father, it's been almost three months since my last blog entry. I'll do better, I promise. For penance I promise to post 100+ photos, videos and benign quotes to my Pinterest page.
Besides the small, steady stream of reminders from friends and family to get back on the horse, I haven't had the inspiration. Okay, that's untrue. I've produced a list of a good 20+ topics I'd love to indulge in. To ensure no negative repercussions, my lawyer and therapist (I actually don't have the latter, but it sounds cool) recommend I wait another six months to a year.
You know what's the most interesting thing about a divorce (there, I wrote the dirty word)? Your relationships with short & long-term friends, neighbors, co-workers and acquaintances changes overnight. Seriously - it was liking watching a social seismic shift right in front of your eyes. I huge chasm of awkwardness physically shaking the foundations of almost all relationships. A divorce, as a good friend told me recently, forces everyone around you to take inventory of their own situation. Being the natural narcissistic ass that I am, I never thought of that. Could this explain the change? Or, as I actually see it, people just don't know how to broach the subject or find it too uncomfortable to talk about and have just chosen to back away? I honestly don't know. I wish I did.
There's no winners in the situation. There never was meant to be. But I do miss the dynamic and closeness I had worked years to build. I felt a part of the neighborhood, a part of a network of people and I appreciated and respected it. But, that's a thing of the past now - I'm rebuilding and cherishing what I do have with the friends who "circled the wagons" during those dark days. They are the foundation of my future.
Boy, that was a lot of dribble. Let's talk positive for a moment. Some twenty years ago, a friend and I were driving across the University Bridge after work at the Cafe Allegro in her 1971 VW Van going back to the house in the Central District. The reason I remember the location, the person and even the car is that I was given an unsolicited, unexpected and one of the most heart-felt observations of me by a friend. She said, "Mikky, you can tell what kind of person you are by the people you are friends with. And you have some amazing people around you. You're a real good person." Karen, thank you again, albeit two decades later. I've built on that over the years and truly cherish and love all those around me.